Hi. I'm new here and the primary purpose for me joining is because I feel so lost in my current situation with my owner.
For a little background, he is very controlling and possessive and gets angry easily if I express that I am not comfortable with a scene, toy, etc. Due to this, I have become afraid of continuously disappointing him and keep my uncomfortability to myself.
The current situation is that he pushed me into being sexually involved with another man even though I have previously expressed, and he agreed during the contract terms, that I don't want to be shared. Not only did he push me into giving oral to this other man via expressing his anger and disappointment about my "negative" views, he coerced me into it by saying he would break his promise and wouldn't spend time with me on my bday if I didn't do it.
So I did it. I serviced another man and let it be recorded as my owner had instructed. When I gave the video to my owner, he... he became angry and has gone against his word and is distancing himself from me. He told me that me performing oral on the other man hurt him deeply.
What should I do? I was only trying to please him and do as he instructed.
For a little background, he is very controlling and possessive and gets angry easily if I express that I am not comfortable with a scene, toy, etc. Due to this, I have become afraid of continuously disappointing him and keep my uncomfortability to myself.
The current situation is that he pushed me into being sexually involved with another man even though I have previously expressed, and he agreed during the contract terms, that I don't want to be shared. Not only did he push me into giving oral to this other man via expressing his anger and disappointment about my "negative" views, he coerced me into it by saying he would break his promise and wouldn't spend time with me on my bday if I didn't do it.
So I did it. I serviced another man and let it be recorded as my owner had instructed. When I gave the video to my owner, he... he became angry and has gone against his word and is distancing himself from me. He told me that me performing oral on the other man hurt him deeply.
What should I do? I was only trying to please him and do as he instructed.