I guess this will be an outlet. Not sure, maybe the blog section is best as I feel like this will turn into journaling endeavor.
I am new to kink in general. Never really been a huge porn consumer having at most edgy vanilla relationships. Last year, while traveling, I was watching tv in a hotel room. I don't remember the show name or what ever, but there was a lady who had hired a male escort to let her lock him in chastity in order to experiment further with her desires. That was the first awareness of a device/cage that I had experienced. Thus, the curiosity began and I first sought youtube. Then, I was curious as to if such a device would work and how it felt. So, I got my first which was a cb6000. As I experimented with it, I became more accustomed with the area of chastity. Having decided I liked it, I made the leap to order a custom cage that would allow me to test limits while being hygienic and safe. After a bit, I began trying to push out to several weeks utilizing a safety deposit box to avoid access to the keys which went well, but allowed for a moment of weakness once. During all of that, I considered a key holder, but never really sought one. I didn't want a woman to do it unless she had a very keen interest. I wanted her to gain from the experience and process. But, I wounderd what it would be like to be helped through a struggle by the person who was saying ''no''. "I will help you get thru this, but not by release" was a fasinationg thought. Though, I had no interested in a mean spirited person. Fast forward, I was chatting with a lady, generally. Over the course of the discussion she asked about my kinks. So, I indulged her into the fact that I was currently caged, and in order to avoid a moment of weakness had dropped the keys into the mail. After a few conversations, she divulged that she would be interested in becoming the decider. I was wowed, because I see folks, essentially, begging while trying to find a holder. Let alone one who really matched up to an underlying fantasy. I was also scared, nervous, with a rush of other feelings on top of having been locked for my longest period to date at that point. After discussion, we agreed and did a contract. Friday will be 5 weeks. Yesterday was the first time of her having said "lets wait and see how you are doing next week"
Perhaps, this forum will be an outlet and discovery in this part of the journey. It is still very new. The fantasy was to really be pushed, but I am not sure how that will translate in reality. It is strange, great, weird, and all kinds of other things to have the decision for something so close and primal be at another's discretion. Yesterday, while chatting, I learned of her researching and that she was aroused (not necessary sexually) by being a keyholder. She related that watching a chaste guy being teased and denied really excited her. It was oddly exhilarating that she was so peaked, and that I found so much pleasure in what she was getting out of it.
Yesterday was the first time of a decision from her. She said "lets wait and see how you are doing next week"
Wondering how this be and just musing a bit.
I am new to kink in general. Never really been a huge porn consumer having at most edgy vanilla relationships. Last year, while traveling, I was watching tv in a hotel room. I don't remember the show name or what ever, but there was a lady who had hired a male escort to let her lock him in chastity in order to experiment further with her desires. That was the first awareness of a device/cage that I had experienced. Thus, the curiosity began and I first sought youtube. Then, I was curious as to if such a device would work and how it felt. So, I got my first which was a cb6000. As I experimented with it, I became more accustomed with the area of chastity. Having decided I liked it, I made the leap to order a custom cage that would allow me to test limits while being hygienic and safe. After a bit, I began trying to push out to several weeks utilizing a safety deposit box to avoid access to the keys which went well, but allowed for a moment of weakness once. During all of that, I considered a key holder, but never really sought one. I didn't want a woman to do it unless she had a very keen interest. I wanted her to gain from the experience and process. But, I wounderd what it would be like to be helped through a struggle by the person who was saying ''no''. "I will help you get thru this, but not by release" was a fasinationg thought. Though, I had no interested in a mean spirited person. Fast forward, I was chatting with a lady, generally. Over the course of the discussion she asked about my kinks. So, I indulged her into the fact that I was currently caged, and in order to avoid a moment of weakness had dropped the keys into the mail. After a few conversations, she divulged that she would be interested in becoming the decider. I was wowed, because I see folks, essentially, begging while trying to find a holder. Let alone one who really matched up to an underlying fantasy. I was also scared, nervous, with a rush of other feelings on top of having been locked for my longest period to date at that point. After discussion, we agreed and did a contract. Friday will be 5 weeks. Yesterday was the first time of her having said "lets wait and see how you are doing next week"
Perhaps, this forum will be an outlet and discovery in this part of the journey. It is still very new. The fantasy was to really be pushed, but I am not sure how that will translate in reality. It is strange, great, weird, and all kinds of other things to have the decision for something so close and primal be at another's discretion. Yesterday, while chatting, I learned of her researching and that she was aroused (not necessary sexually) by being a keyholder. She related that watching a chaste guy being teased and denied really excited her. It was oddly exhilarating that she was so peaked, and that I found so much pleasure in what she was getting out of it.
Yesterday was the first time of a decision from her. She said "lets wait and see how you are doing next week"
Wondering how this be and just musing a bit.