Hello. I am new to the world of BDSM but have always wanted to be a part of it. I currently have a dom who lives states away from me and our only play is over the phone or over a video game we share. He is 49 and I am 25. The age difference first was hard to get over but I soon realized that men his age are well-seasoned and know what a woman needs. I am in love with my dom and he gives me everything I need sexually. He also cherishes me and loves me as well. But he has this animalistic hunger for me and needs to dominate and control me as much as possible. I have to say sometimes he is too intense and frightens me but it's an exciting fright. He would never do anything to harm me unless I wanted it.
I do have a delimma. I am stuck between two worlds. I am currently married to a man who I love but he can't feed this hunger I have. I am also in love with my dom. I wish my husband could share me cause I want to have them both. I have a three year old and cannot risk him getting caught in a mess between a divorce and a 49 yr old step father. I am currently finishing my degree in psychology (ironic, lol) and I just know it wouldn't be good for my son to do all this. I wonder if there is a way I might be able to come to my husband with a way to see if he might share me. I doubt he will, but I wonder if I can try?
My dom is everything to me. I tried to give him up and it is impossible. It is like he has a rope tied around my gut and I melt and become paralyzed and I cannot do anything unless his voice commands me. My husband could never do this for me like my dom can. But my husband is my emotional strength and I need him. But I also need my dom.
Just the other day we tried something new...he had me put pool balls in my pussy and ping pong balls in my ass and push them out for him. He then commanded me to put a pool ball in my pussy and go to church, lol. I am not used to doing things like this and its that itch Ive been needing to scratch.
Anyway, gad to be a part of this forum and look forward to ideas and responses.
I do have a delimma. I am stuck between two worlds. I am currently married to a man who I love but he can't feed this hunger I have. I am also in love with my dom. I wish my husband could share me cause I want to have them both. I have a three year old and cannot risk him getting caught in a mess between a divorce and a 49 yr old step father. I am currently finishing my degree in psychology (ironic, lol) and I just know it wouldn't be good for my son to do all this. I wonder if there is a way I might be able to come to my husband with a way to see if he might share me. I doubt he will, but I wonder if I can try?
My dom is everything to me. I tried to give him up and it is impossible. It is like he has a rope tied around my gut and I melt and become paralyzed and I cannot do anything unless his voice commands me. My husband could never do this for me like my dom can. But my husband is my emotional strength and I need him. But I also need my dom.
Just the other day we tried something new...he had me put pool balls in my pussy and ping pong balls in my ass and push them out for him. He then commanded me to put a pool ball in my pussy and go to church, lol. I am not used to doing things like this and its that itch Ive been needing to scratch.
Anyway, gad to be a part of this forum and look forward to ideas and responses.