Blog by NeyLocker

[NeyLocker]

This is a fantasy blog, where I explore my journey and my fantasies becoming a nomale, this will include plenty of fantasy and from time to time experiences. How you decide to read them is all your choice, but keep input positive and proactive. I’m here to learn and support, so I expect nothing less of the readers.

Thanks for reading along, I’ll keep this thread active, with my inputs.
I’ve no plans about making it more formal, so I really do appreciate the comments, views and encouragement I get on this thread.

I’m very cool with you coming with creative input for future pieces, and use them as way to explore my kink also.
I do not intent to offend, but if an input passes my limits, I will let you know, but most likely I will not explore it.
Learn by exploration.

Please, if you want to use my writing other places, reach out and let’s talk before.

Tags for this thread:

• Chastity
• nomale
• locked cock
• sissification
• slave
• fantasy
• sub
• bdsm
• anal
• oral

✏ NeyLocker

 

[NeyLocker]

I am still at the stage where I feel the chastity cage on my dick all the time, it is a constant reminder that I can not use it. It serves as the symbol that I am no longer worthy of using my dick, I need to find a different way to be useful for others than with my dick. It is a big part of my identity that has been removed by this device locked around genitals.

Watching porn that focuses on blowjob and anal is the direction that although I do not have a dick anymore I can still be useful, but it is in a very different manner than previous.

I need to understand that my pleasure can not come from my dick, but it needs to come from different areas of my body.
Seeing the how the women are smiling and enjoying have cum shot into their mouth or onto their face, it is becoming more and more likely that I’ll need to serve others in a similar manner for gaining a bit of pleasure and sense of purpose. Slowly I’m grooming my self to accept that it is the only way I can regain sexual purpose, I need to accept that I can use my mouth and my ass to please others, while hopefully this journey will also lead to me finding own pleasure in the process.

The discipline to not think about just giving yourself a hand job to relieve yourself of the agony building up in the body is tough. I still find my hand reaching down for my dick to only find a cage around the dick, and leaving it untouchable. The frustration that gets me every single time is very real, I feel my dick pumping against the cage, I feel it leaking out of the cage. I have no control and can only accept that it does have a mind of it own, but it is trapped and unable to give in to its nature.

Slowly I’m losing the sense that my dick has any value, and it is constantly being reaffirmed. The process will only increase many fold when I start serving others, and refocuses onto their pleasure and accepts that my sense of pleasure is rapidly changing.