Last night I had my first task in my Dare Calendar. It's a repeated task and I have to deep throat for 20 minutes. The mean part is that I have to do it at 2am for 20 minutes. So I set an alarm to wake me up at 1:55am and prepared all tools for the activity. Since I am on denial I'm horny all the time. So I wanted to add a little extra to the task: In addition to the wall mountable dildo I had prepared my 4 clover clamps (all connected) and 2 nipple clamps with weights.
When the alarm went off, I was puzzled at first. I'm not used to get off the bed at 1:55am. So it took me some minutes to realize what I had to do. When I did, I jumped out of the bed, dropped my pajamas and quickly kneeled in front of the wall mounted dildo. I attacked two clover clamps and the nipple clamps to my nipples and the remaining clover clamps "down there". Then I started a 20 minutes timer and went on with my first deep throat. Unfortunately it was already 2:05am when I started.
The first couple of minutes went down smoothly and I started to touch my clamped nipples. That made me ready to orgasm in a blink and I had to force myself not to start bringing myself to that orgasm. I'm in denial and I don't want to fail. Meanwhile I sucked on the dildo again and again. The constand moving caused the clamps to swing which added to the pain they did. I felt used and worthless. But I did good at deep throating.
About 10 minutes into the process I had to remove the clamps. I was aching under the pressure to orgasm and the pain was great. I had to change the quality of pain I was experiencing. I quickly removed all clamps and worked my nipples which sent a wave of pain through my body. The dildo deep in my throat muffled most of my screams fortunately. I don't need to wake up people by screaming that late. Tears run into my eyes and down my face. My body shaked, ready to orgasm, but lacking the final touch.
I continued sucking the dildo. My gag reflex kicked in quite often now and I was crying silently. I felt highly abused. I knew I was just a slut doing deep throats for the pleasure of others. I felt sorry for the dildo not being a real cock. I imagined doing ass to mouth. That would have been the right finish for a pathetic slut like me. But the task told me to just do deep throats for 20 minutes. And I did. Little was left and I didn't want to spoil that. I reattached the clamps while going on sucking.
The last couple of minutes I was crying, my body was shaking and I felt miserable. I focused my mind on the sucking, on my task. On the only thing that was left to be done. I finally felt like the humiliated worthless slut I am.
Then I realized that 20 minutes were over. I quickly went fully down on the dildo, removed the clamps and worked my nipples again. The pain was running down my body and tingled in my private parts. They waited to be touched but the worthless slut I am may not touch, may not have an orgasm. I quickly cleaned the spot and went to bed again.
I had a hard time finding sleep afterwards. I imagined to be bound, caged. I imagined to suck a real dick and to swallow the cum. I imagined being whipped. But eventually I fell asleep.
Thanks for the task. I'm looking forward to the next instance on tuesday 2:00am.