A while back I had purchased a large dildo, foolishly thinking I could insert it. I was very, very wrong, and even inserting half of the cock head had me in excruciating pain, something which is not included in my list of kinks.
Today, I decided to rectify my mistake, venturing into town by bus. I went in the early evening when I assumed it would not be very busy in the town centre, although I misjudged slightly and arrived around rush-hour, not a good time to visit such a store located near a main road. Every time I go to an adult store I get very hyped up and excited at the prospects of what I could buy, thinking of all the toys and outfits I can look at, some I consider buying, others will just fuel my fantasies as they are far outside my price range (as much fun as I'm sure it would be, I don't see myself spending the better part of 100 arbitrary monetary units, or possibly more, on a single toy. At least not until I earn a lot more money). Despite getting excited on the lead up to my visit, when I arrive in town I always get a bit nervous, thoughts rushing through my mind of friends or relatives seeing me. I get embarrassed, then excited by the idea of being humiliated like that. I distracted myself for a while, looking in a few shops near the adult store. One music shop was conveniently located next door, allowing me to assess how busy the area is.
After a few minutes of pretending to be interested in various products, I walked out of one shop, a few metres along the road and entered the door with blacked out glass, immediately getting excited once again as I see the shelves covered in toys, lubricants, lingerie and novelty items.
I casually browsed for a while, glancing at a few different items and after a few minutes the attractive female assistant asked if I required any help, I politely declined and continued to browse the shelves. I always feel a bit uncomfortable when it comes to attractive shop assistants in the adult store. I have no idea why, it's totally irrational since she helps different people pick out sex toys all day. Despite this, I feel much more comfortable in a shop I previously visited that was staffed by a gay man, perhaps it's because I don't think he would judge me as much for buying anal toys. Whatever the reason, it's stupid that I feel this way.
I have to wonder what kind of assistance they could offer while you are shopping for a sex toy, it isn't like a shoe shop where you can try one out for size. I would have loved to be confident enough to ask for help, but I just didn't have it in me this time. Perhaps next time I will ask, so if anyone has any good questions to ask with regards to sex toys, post a comment to let me know. I'm sure I will feel a bit humiliated, which will excite me
Today, I decided to rectify my mistake, venturing into town by bus. I went in the early evening when I assumed it would not be very busy in the town centre, although I misjudged slightly and arrived around rush-hour, not a good time to visit such a store located near a main road. Every time I go to an adult store I get very hyped up and excited at the prospects of what I could buy, thinking of all the toys and outfits I can look at, some I consider buying, others will just fuel my fantasies as they are far outside my price range (as much fun as I'm sure it would be, I don't see myself spending the better part of 100 arbitrary monetary units, or possibly more, on a single toy. At least not until I earn a lot more money). Despite getting excited on the lead up to my visit, when I arrive in town I always get a bit nervous, thoughts rushing through my mind of friends or relatives seeing me. I get embarrassed, then excited by the idea of being humiliated like that. I distracted myself for a while, looking in a few shops near the adult store. One music shop was conveniently located next door, allowing me to assess how busy the area is.
After a few minutes of pretending to be interested in various products, I walked out of one shop, a few metres along the road and entered the door with blacked out glass, immediately getting excited once again as I see the shelves covered in toys, lubricants, lingerie and novelty items.
I casually browsed for a while, glancing at a few different items and after a few minutes the attractive female assistant asked if I required any help, I politely declined and continued to browse the shelves. I always feel a bit uncomfortable when it comes to attractive shop assistants in the adult store. I have no idea why, it's totally irrational since she helps different people pick out sex toys all day. Despite this, I feel much more comfortable in a shop I previously visited that was staffed by a gay man, perhaps it's because I don't think he would judge me as much for buying anal toys. Whatever the reason, it's stupid that I feel this way.
I have to wonder what kind of assistance they could offer while you are shopping for a sex toy, it isn't like a shoe shop where you can try one out for size. I would have loved to be confident enough to ask for help, but I just didn't have it in me this time. Perhaps next time I will ask, so if anyone has any good questions to ask with regards to sex toys, post a comment to let me know. I'm sure I will feel a bit humiliated, which will excite me